risks offer big rewards

today is a lazy day as i try to get my brain in gear for fall. i dont really get how super designers do this… how do they create two seasons ahead of what they are living in; how do i design winter sweaters in the middle of the summer. and yes i do believe we will have three more months of hotness … so why not just keep up with tanks. ugh. clearly my brain is not ready for the big time.

so i go one day at a time.

i have been trying to design a simple but interesting screen print, to take my work to the ‘next level’… i feel the tees and things need more than just the characters. plus not all peices i have in mind work with a child like character. so i needed another way to keep things together.

but detailed screens are hard to make, especially when i love the ‘hand-drawn’ look.

so i took a risk…
new idea avec SHARPIE!! by you.
and coloured RIGHT ON THE TEE.

why not, right?

there is no worrying about how to make it hand-drawn. no waiting for paint to dry. and its all me. so this might be my new trend. and its super fast which is a total bonus for me. but why a city scape? not sure haha. just something i always seem to doodle. and YES IT IS A COINCIDENCE that my man has it tattooed on his arm. or maybe fate — that we both think so alike. im serious. no sarcasm. its FATE!!

i originally started this business by coloring right on the tees, but with skinny sharpies. i felt back then it needed some sewing. thankfully it only took me two years to realize a combination of the two is what i really needed.

after jumpin up and down in excitement over the new tees, i shared my skills and taught a friend to sew. actually im sure she already knew how… but i helped her transform her skinny jeans to a rocking skinny skirt. (i will try to convince this ‘creative barbie’ to send me some pics. )

teaching a lesson by you.

i tried my hardest not to just take the project, and sew it myself. not because she was doing a bad job — but because i am a control freak… in the sense that “your taking too long — oh here let me do it!” maybe thats more like a speed freak lol. are you done yet? how bout now? and now? why arent you done yet??!

personal moment…

(this is hard. just breathe…)

i am not a friend keeper. i have many aquaitences but never take that big step to let them close, and make them ‘friends’. i had really awesome, always there for me, laugh with me friends… but …i woke up one day and the friendship was done. they moved or just stopped calling. i gave so much and infact relied on their opinions more than i should have. my desire to keep these friends lead to letting them walk all over me, and take advantage of my kindness. i would be there for them thru anything they needed — but never really saw the same in return. i literally lost a boy, furniture and money to people like this…. the un-friend.

i was so afraid of giving everything i have, and that new friend running for the hills with my treasure in hand, that i decided to avoid all friend like commitments. when a potential friend asked me to hang out, i hesitated til it was too late. deep inside i knew these people were not bad.. and would never do what i imagined… but i was scared. having takers as friends was hard work, and depressing really. i didnt want the work it took, just to get nothing in return. i cant describe my reasoning really. it was like these takers depressed me. i had no one to turn to, which tarnished my idea of what a friend was. if that’s what friendship is supposed to be — if everyone’s friendships work this way, then cutting off friends was clearly the safer choice.

i didnt realize how damaging to my own character that decision was

… and only when i took a risk to make new friends did i see this.

its dorky but having friends and people to turn to … or even just talk to…  is a fabulous motivator. holy crap im 30 and i finally understand what a real friend is. i am happy when i get up in the morning. i laugh at things again. i have ideas flowing like crazy too. once again i cant sew fast enough to get the ideas out. i even feel like i have the strength to go out and talk to people. maybe even make more friends. its a contagious feeling — i just want more.

lesson learned: having real-decent-honest friends is good for your health.

so go! … find a friend!!

(uhm a real-decent-honest friend. not a taker friend)

i will try to convince this ‘creative barbie’ to send me some pics.

2 thoughts on “risks offer big rewards

  1. “I don’t need a certain number of friends, just a number of whom I’m certain”.

    It’s a little scary as just how much I can relate to what you just said….and when did you start lying about your age :p


    • hahah i like to use round numbers. that, and sometimes i actually forget. so to clear that up… im 31. i knew there would be others like me. i remember what we both dealt with growing up… and if only i had realized it then, but that was the starting point.

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